Moving on


My mom died on Monday 26th May 2014 after a long struggle with Scleroderma that lasted 24 years after her diagnosis. Doctors say it is a miracle that she survived that long, but all I can think of is how fast she was taken away from me. We were so close, like best friends. We literally read each other’s thoughts and completed each other’s sentences. We both felt what each was hiding deep inside. I miss her dearly and I find it very difficult to move on. My question is, how does one move on after losing a part of you?

Due to her disease, my mother was incapable of doing things on her own so I helped her out most if not all the time. It did not bother me, but the relationship transformed from me being her daughter to her being mine. I felt responsible for her well-being and all my life revolved around her. Many people say that this situation was unfair to me because I wasn’t living my life. What many don’t understand is that she was my life. Now that she’s gone, I don’t want to go out and have fun because no matter where I go I remember her being there with me and how much fun we used to have together. People don’t understand this relationship and never will, many believe I was taking care of her out of obligation but I wasn’t, it was out of love.

Some days I am fine and happy and able to move on, but other days like this one I feel unable to breathe and nothing makes me content. They say time will make it all go away and I will get preoccupied with my life, but for me time just makes it worse.

I understand that death is a part of life, and I’m not the only one who has lost a mother. Some lose them when they are born or at a younger age than mine. Nonetheless, the feeling is the same and the loss of someone dear to you is unbearable. What makes me reluctant to speak my feelings around the people I know is because I know the comforting words they all will say to make me feel better, and that is not what I want to hear. Sometimes, all one needs is to get their thoughts out without any comments from anyone. So I thought why not blog about it! I know that my life does not seem that interesting or exceptional, but what I have to say might relate to someone else’s and perhaps that person will know that they are not the only ones who are feeling this way.

My question to readers is, how can one move on after losing someone so dear to their heart, however please provide different answers than the routine ones we are all used to hearing. If you were in my place and had similar feelings towards someone, it doesn’t have to be a parent, how do you get back up on the horse?

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Sex Trafficking Survivors Worldwide Unite, Board to Meet in Washington DC


Sex Trafficking Survivors Worldwide Unite, Board to Meet in Washington DC. A great initiative! Best of luck!

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This is an important topic to shed light on! Big thanks to the blogger who is spreading more awareness about this sad and terrifying issue! Thanks again for your efforts!

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Freshly Pressed: Editors’ Picks for August 2012


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In August, WordPress.com bloggers hit us with their best: Smart takes on the month’s biggest stories. Thoughtful musings on culture. Photographs and art that bring the world to life.

The following ten picks represent what Freshly Pressed is all about: original content that engages readers, timely posts that contribute to a larger discussion, and personal writing that resonates with others. Enjoy!

Glimpses of Iran

This photo essay documents quiet, unexpected moments of daily life in Iran and captures the delicious details and textures of Yzad and elsewhere. The collection of six photographs illustrates quality over quantity—each image is strong, well-composed, and tells its own story.

Frankie V. Debra, Roe V. Wade: Patricia Heaton’s Two Famous Moms, and Can You Still Be a Feminist If You’re Anti-Abortion?

“But I’m still happy to be in their gang, because we don’t all have to think the same.”

This post examines hot-button topics—abortion and feminism—through…

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“Confidence, like art, n…


“Confidence, like art, never comes from having all the answers; it comes from being open to all the questions.” By Earl Gray Stevens.

“What is true is already so.
Owning up to it doesn’t make it worse.
Not being open about it doesn’t make it go away.
And because it’s true, it is what is there to be interacted with.
Anything untrue isn’t there to be lived.
People can stand what is true,
for they are already enduring it.” By Eugene Gendlin

“It wasn’t the world being round that agitated people, but that the world wasn’t flat. When a well-packaged web of lies has been sold gradually to the masses over generations, the truth will seem utterly preposterous and its speaker a raving lunatic.” By Dresden James.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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The truth is never easy, whether it’s the path taken to finding it, or how we feel after being enlightened by it. Nevertheless, we should always seek the truth no matter how ‘ugly’ it can be, at least when knowing we can finally do something to change our reality, instead of waking up from a beautiful dream only to find out we’ve awaken to a living nightmare; just as our friend from the selected painting.

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